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The vast shadow of the phenomenal includes thee also friend. In its pied and painted immensity, true enough. All else is shadow. When we are convalescent nature looks up to us. Here is a giant rock with the word convalesce on it. For some that many believe may look like conservation efforts and being one with nature but I see it as destruction and rebuilding. Ask those ancient Romans buried under the rubble if they felt like they were a threat to the planet says legend comedian George Carlin. After all these cataclysmic events happened the earth is still here. The earth mathematically has been here far longer than human and will continue to be here far longer than we will be here he argues, to his point about that hilarious existential belief seems ripe and funny for all but may be triggering to some.

People die every day. Look at the truth in the face. Are you okay? If you live in the fourtunate realms of existence i am sure you are and you will be fine. AH but that is where those misguided notions of delusions draw you into their avicci hells and the like. Because as a sentient truth you are small and practically a tiny cosmic speck in this whole tapestry of the universal.

--------> Run on sentence? (This is you crying in the shower before work as the whole cosmos spin in perfect geometric alignment into their far reaching and unknowable destinations; far out and fleeting is this time of life we obsess over and cling to not knowing that death is just another part on this long winding journey we must be epistemological and all becoming, there is no evil, our foundations were laid by a creator god and a good one, our truths are known to us from these powerful experiences and we are like cosmic suns setting in the fountain of truth forever endeavoring in blissful manifestation and chakra alignment into the far flung future as long as we sentient creatures of anomaly bespoke our souls into the reactions forces of the retrograde pomegranate utilitarian dystopia and utopia of this strange society and great society that uses liberty to harness itself toward good will and peace as the forever indulgent authors of magnanimous creations guide us toward living in fullness away from the stinge inclined toward abundance and with souls of past and towering esteem guiding our actions, thoughts and notions into our self regulated goodness, Proclivity for creativity, happiness, industry and living well, as our systems should be wired for the same self integration as those living legends such as Marcus Aurelius whose meditation is all “Corporeal and bullishitty” and the fine innuedo of the soul that makes this enormous claim is only to seek goodness for man and his fellow brother, inclined in this world to make the good fight of our libertine oppressors invalid because we are factions cut from the same bloody rug dripping across the linens of history as man. )

OK so I am trying to write 300 words a day. A soliloquy of inspiration. Blue bible black north the lord in the wild defeating the Qlippothic, Buhdda gothic, Psychedilic prophet. A joy for me is learning lessons and those scraps of info are stuck somewhere in my conscience as I live my day to day. Like, How in the buddhist tradition sangha means your people, Dharma is the wisdom, and how if somebody mistreats me I view them as a sacred friend because how else can I say that they were a obstacle to my patience. Also just simple things like trying to be mindful, that I struggle with. How outlandish what it takes to comprehend this equivalent exchange. Today I am grateful. I journal in my notebook too. Today I am gratefull for the roof over my head, the food and drinks in my fridge, the money in my bank account, the people I’ve meet who have helped and showed me a great kindness and service, the love I have with this life. Today I am grateful for the music I hear, I am grateful that the pain teaches us that the blood we bleed is not nesscasary, I often times make situations worse then they should be and that's the wisdom lens that our mystic monk friends tell us to try to refrain from. To meditate is to become a neutral observer. So I can go into the six perfections or the four noble truths or aggregates or the inflictive emotions. Inflictive emotions are things like envy, greed, ignorance, Jealousy, and anger. I am greedy for clothes, I am greedy for money, I am greedy for attention I am greedy for affection I am greedy for love, I am greedy to have friends I am greedy for sex.

Conditioning is important as its how you reaction to the situation is important. You can be faced with situations please don’t turn it into a drama or a gossip. There is this fact that your reaction is your choice. All times are sacred, you the reader, have seen this from the ever vigorous energetic life we have been so involved in. If I am the practitioner as I am the patient than who is the doctor. Knee surgeons tend to be more conservative than psychiatrists. And Schizophrenics tend to be more prone to abuse and toxic environments than lets say a sane working professional. As a toxic life has afforded me to live in constant Impermanent delusions and mostly bad decisions.

We seek happiness because we don’t want to suffer, we want the people we have around us to be happy because we love them and don’t want them to suffer, we hope in a love because compassion is something to be practiced as hopefully we can find comfort in a less than ideal world.

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