6/11/20

6/11/2020

what are your values? Are they intrinsic to me? DO I need these things in my life to be happy?

Why am I suffering? Can I forgive you?

My values are mine and I keep them because they are important. If I didn't have my own set of values would I be worse off for it? Can a shitty person have good values? Does someone with a behavior disorder have shitty values? Do I need my values to be happy with my everyday existence?

How do my values change over time and do I need them everyday to be happy?

I value many things. Friendship, family, time spent doing things I love, nature, god,compassion, happiness, things that bring wisdom, intelligence, good intentions, positive thoughts, prayers and in general love.

I do not value some things but them I wont discuss. Because I find it in my heart to forgive things that I don't value. Just because its not important to me does not mean its not important too you. Maybe I come from a different perspective so am not entrenched in the value you seem to espouse.

We all need something to set against the inherent suffering of being an individual. That's were a value system can become beneficial. Developing a method or a system of values can be challenging. Because there are different belief systems that occupy the world and there is a vast world that occupies the ever changing current of existence. If you walk into me and say hello to me I probably value your energy to go out of your way to see me. If you give me a blessing and a prayer I probably would value you more than somebody who goes out of there way to make my life more difficult then It should be.

“shallow or deep, Kind or cheap”

What are your values and how do they affect your goals? What are your goals?

My values affect my goals weather I consciously realize it or not. Shopping isn't a value but I find myself at the dollar store more than id care to admit. Smoking isn't a value but I smoke way more often than I should.(Cigarettes not weed) Maybe I should be like willy nelson and smoke a couple joints.

Is a goal a concrete action or achievement? Or is my delusion about failing to achieve it making it all the more unrealistic for me to attain it?

As a christian should I be rebuked for reading a dharma? Because if it were reversed a monk would tell me if it brings wisdom then it is of no harm.

If it brings about an impure thought then I am sorrowful that it ever came abounding. I confess of my sin and my transgression was based in delusion. But I am fearful. Because this life is temporary and what does it matter if I value my friends if all is to leave this world. What does it mean that family has your back? If they too will leave you?

I adorn myself with smoke and flame. I tackle and maim. All is right, in the fight for your life, and the stand to maintain.

Esoteric theoretic so prophetic within this Roderick.

Goals:

1.) Sell a beat online?

2.) Get 1,000 subs on youtube

3.) write a book? Journal?

4.) Be happy, don't worry.

5.) Relationship

How can I possibly achieve my goals?

How can I possibly be happy?

Is there joy in what you do?

How can I help you?

If nature therapy helps then I should sit in the garden more? Or garden more? Or find a nature trail to go on a long walk? Or kayak along the bay? Go fish? Count the clock?

The intention was to journal to have some resemblance to expression. So what words can I say? Where is this all going? I can manufacture some type of feeling to evoke a representation of myself and form a conscious thought about what may or may not be going on in my life. Fiction writers like ray use type writers. SO id say manufacture one and come back to me.

My my mine mean light, my my my trash bat.

Is this who you want to be? As I am only human and am at fault partially or most of the time id say im responsible to take accountability. If I was a rich guy then yes this is exactly who I want to be. Seneca and his calculations. Death is the dead end. Nothing more to it. Play chess so well then.

Stranger to stranger. Violence and riots inside your mind as the fire dwells deep. I see you. You see me? SO damn what? I want to be left alone. And color inside the lines so well.

So misunderstood. We. The.. Misunderstood..

Whats a serpent in the sun? A slithering Satan. A withering of skin, oil and venom. Deception incarnate.

I envelope like sea

peace and harmony

As tall as a mustard seed or simple like a pea