No shave movember

11-3-20

Welcome to my blog. This I a place I can showcase my writings and enjoy talking about thing that be on my mind. A blog is a place where you can share and express thoughts you may be having. Similar to a journal in my case or more like a running dialogue of opinions and I hope someone gives me ideas and chimes in their thoughts so my work isn’t as open ended as it is as of now. I share content that I like because it may be something I’m interested in or is compelling me to write any given day. That being said. Welcome! And blessings.

Today is the Tuesday that may or may not be a historic time in our great nation of the united states of America and it truly is an important time. It’s election time. I voted nearly two weeks ago so I’m glad I don’t have to go out physically to the polls sometime tomorrow. Today I’ve seen a few political posts but that’s not all that its cut out to be. People on social media will literally be mean to you if you don’t share the same opinions. omg.

Today si es the third. I like the number three, for some odd profound reason. Like how in the Kybalion there it is some type of mystical sacred number. Its meant to represent some type of frequency oscillation that has mystical properties or some bs.

Ok so lets talk about music I guess. I should probably chug another gallon of coffee before I write another sentence. Who’s your favorite musical artist? For me I have a lot of various musicians I listen too. Be it rock and roll legends the likes of tommy petty, Robert plant, jimmy page, mick jagger and Bruce Springsteen. Or electronic emerging artists like deadmau5, rezz, atlas, eekkoo, or emancipator. I love getting my Spotify playlist on and just jamming for the hell of it. Today I was all about Metallica and tenacious d. Tomorrow who knows. Stranger to stranger is a fantastic album by Paul Simon and the werewolf is a great favorite of mine. Its on now that’s why I mention it.

“Stock up on water”

The water out the tap

Is very hard to drink

The werewolf just left his hair in the sink

In the time it takes one to blink.

11-6-20

“Live each day as if it were a lifetime”

Today it’s already November. I don’t know about you guys or whoever may read this really, but that means thanksgiving’s around the corner and Christmas decorations are going up already. The end of October was a great Halloween and now were heading into election day and they’re still counting the votes and were waiting to see who the next president may be. Is it time to tell you how my day went yet? What is that? No one asked you say. Cool. Thank god. I am not doing so well. I believe this world is a drive through pharmacy and if you don’t have pre-existing conditions, you’ll soon get sick and need help. Weather it be from drinking poisoned water, breathing dirty air, or caught somewhere in a crowd where you get sneezed on.

I have a condition called schizophrenia that I was diagnosed with when I was the ripe and tender age of 19. I was in a hospital and they were serving snacks in the common room and I got to drink decaf coffee every day.

The condition makes it so I have to go out to an outpatient mental health clinic every two weeks and get an intermuscular shot of fluphenazine. That and talk to my counselor/therapist/social worker for a few minutes. The shit is sucky because I hate needles and wish I were able to just take my oral meds for a while instead of the shot every time. But it keeps me balanced and healthy, so I deal with it.

Today you know is the day that politics are on everyone's minds, driving them crazy and yelling at people on social media and what not. Even if you have a different opinion, I will respect it because that the freedom of speech that comes with living in America. It is a gift and a curse. Because freedom of speech does not have to be positive freedom. It can be negative free speech and even hyperbolic vitriol and anger and resentment or hate. That’s the way it is and it’s an amendment in the constitution, but it means I can’t be stopped from saying I wish you well and happiness as well. Intolerance is a doble edged sword.

“Make the most of your 24”.

So, after posting to my blog I figured id want to take some time to update it and probably add to it. I’m feeling decent. Not terrible but also trying to embrace why I am suffering. It’s sad that I feel nauseous and anxious but it dissipates every once in a while when I can get a chance to sleep or if I feel ok[RS1] enough to work out a plan of action. I am nervous being in a new state and trying to take the necessary steps to work on my mental and physical health. My sister is going to take me to the emergency room to get my twice a week shot injection done. It’s just I’m nervous about it. It’s like an outpatient service that I need and a social worker and nurse practitioner in order to get my meds done with. It should be easy but where still working on it. Once we get there im hoping we can get it resolved quicky seeing as I already have my medications with me so that is one silver lining. I have a phobia of hospitals and inpatient services so that is why since I am doing so well on these medications that I don’t want to stop and end up back in the actual inpatient psychiatric facilities. But I shall digress.

On a lighter note, today I shaved off my beard that I have been growing long for about 11 months now. To honor November's mo-vember and #Growamosaveabro. And its important to me. For mental health reasons. Men’s health reasons. And because 1 in every 3 suicides are men and 1 in every nine men have testicular cancer. So I made a post about me rocking a mo and think it is fitting for the whole trendy #NOSHAVENOVEMBER thing I have heard about it recent years.

So that’s probably all ill add to this post for now. Enjoy your day and god bless you.